It has been an absolute age I know, but alot has happened with me over the past few months and time has been of the essence to say the least. Anyway, enough of the excuses and time for some serious ranting. Where to start is the only thing.
Well for starters, I splitup with my now ex girlfriend two months ago and it was a complete mess. We have a child together and had been on and off for over 7 years and I suppose we had just run our course. As the old song goes,"breaking up is hard to do". There is no point playing the blame game and its time to move on with our lives now and be the best parents we can for our amazing son.
Well I also had the finals of my journalism course recently which was tough going too and I haven't a clue how I got on. As I read the exam papers I actually realised how underprepared I was and it pissed me off to be quite honest. Some lecturers, who shall remain nameless, let their pupils down gig time as far as I'm concerned and if I fail, I will let them know it. I never had to bluff so much in my life as I did for those exams. I really hope I did enough but I doubt it somehow.
As for the big thing that is pissing me off right now which is the impossibility for a non drinking male to pull a decent woman in this country today. I am far from the perfect package but I am not some kind of Shrek like hidious ogre who picks his nose and screams obsenities at passers by. Can it really be so hard to find a decent, honest, attractive, self respecting, mature, genuine, witty, warm, sincere woman whos head isn't welded up her own arse. I mean what the hell is going on. Am I setting the bar too high or do women like these really exist.
Maybe the problem lies closer to myself. I am quite shy and introverted around fairer members of the oppisite sex. This stems from a distinct lack of confidence which I developed from early childhood and still cary to this day. I am so conscious of how others percieve me at times it is quite sad to be honest. I amslowly learning to let go of my hang ups and I only wish others would give me a chance.
Anyhow, in the immortal words of Jim Morrison,"gonna make it baby in our prime." It will happen sooner or later. In the mean time, Should anybody come across one of these ellusive creatures will they send them in my direction.